I grew up in a strict household.
My father boozed all the time & he was mean.
He often physically harsh me. My dad finally left when I was 15 years old. After that I went to a therapist to talk about my feelings. I did not open up to the therapist until I had been a patient for 3 weeks, & when I did finally open up, I started taking a pill. I was a bit suicidal. I was surprised & sad. The antidepressant made me feel even more sad & depressed. After taking it every morning for 3 weeks, I was filled with rage & sadness. I felt way worse than I did before taking the pill. I stopped taking the medication. I did not want to take the medication anymore due to it being addictive as well. I suffered for a long time before I found medical weed. In school, I started using recreational marijuana with my buddies, but when I realized it could absolutely help my mental state, I went to a doc to get a prescription. It did not cost much cash & the doc got me a script for it. That script allowed me to purchase products from the dispensary. I feel much more calm & relaxed after I smoke weed. My life is much better now that I have medical marijuana. I worry a lot less & I have less stress & anxiety every single morning. I prefer to smoke late in the evening right before I go to sleep. It calms me down enough where I don’t have nightmares.