Before last week, I only used recreational marijuana every once in a while… There were times when I hung out with my friends & the two of us smoke a bowl or had a bone… It wasn’t something I was doing every day until my husbandy & I broke up.
I was devastated when I found out that he was seeing someone else; She didn’t even try to lie or hide it when I found out & confronted her.
She acted relieved & proceeded to tell myself and others every detail that I never wanted to know… After my husbandy packed up all of his bags & moved out of our apartment, I was sitting there alone & by myself. I called a neighbor & he came over with some pizza & pot from the dispensary. I smoked a lot of pot that evening & I undoubtedly felt better. I wasn’t angry or upset, but when I woke up in the afternoon, I was furious again. I went to the cannabis dispensary & bought more recreational marijuana. I have been using cannabis everyday to deal with the pain that I feel. It might not be the best answer to my mental concerns, but I sure suppose a lot better when I am high as a kite. I’m doing my best to get out of bed & go to work & right now that is all I can do. I think however things need to change, however I’m not ready to stop feeling sorry for myself just yet. I’m still wallowing in my anger, pity, & grief. I can’t suppose he cheated after numerous years of dating.