Before last month, I only used recreational marijuana every once in a while.
- There were times when I hung out with my friends and we smoke a bowl or had a bone.
It wasn’t something I was doing every day until my girlfriend and I broke up. I was devastated when I found out that she was seeing someone else. She didn’t even try to lie or hide it when I found out and confronted her. She acted relieved and proceeded to tell me every detail that I never wanted to know. After my girlfriend packed up all of her bags and moved out of our apartment, I was sitting there alone and by myself. I called a friend and he came over with some pizza and pot from the dispensary. I smoked a lot of pot that night and I actually felt better. I wasn’t angry or upset. When I woke up in the morning, I was furious again. I went to the cannabis dispensary and purchased more recreational marijuana. I’ve been using cannabis everyday to deal with the pain that I feel. It might not be the best answer to my mental problems, but I sure feel a lot better when I am high as a kite. I’m doing my best to get out of bed and go to work and right now that is all I can do. I know but things need to change, but I’m not ready to stop feeling sorry for myself just yet. I’m still wallowing in my anger, pity, and grief. I can’t believe she cheated after three years of dating.